Yesterday I joined a bingo site (no comments on bingo please, I like, it makes me happy, shut it!). I deposited £12.
Tonight I won £380 :D
Woooooo!!
Have that bingo haters, sometimes, just sometimes, it loves you back :)
xx
Tuesday, 27 January 2009
Saturday, 24 January 2009
Deep Thinking
Happy 11 months to christmas eve. That first months gone quickly hasn't it?!
I've come to the end of 4 weeks of 9-5 and now start 2 weeks of 2-10 where my back aches, the skin on my hands cracks and bleeds, my arm cramps and I collapse into bed at the end of it. Still, it's only for 2 weeks.
Had one of the worst weeks in my life emotion wise this week, and I'm so glad to get rid of it. All started with a group of us (myself, Tom and 3 housemates) heading out for a night out. As it was Tom's first night out in Reading with me it was gonna be a big night out, it was a chance to have a night out with my best mate who I haven't seen in 7 months because she's been abroad, and it was A's (housemate) birthday the next day. So we started drinking and headed out.
It was a good night, I was very drunk but still in control, I've never had to have anyone help me walk, help me chuck up, put me in a taxi, take me home, anything like that. I always take care of myself, if I need to throw I'll quite happily disappear for 10 minutes and then come back and carry on with the night, I don't cause a fuss. All that said, it was the most drunk I have ever been, and here's the pattern. Since september I've broken my barrier, since september I've no longer had to throw up once I reach a certain point, as a result I've started getting to the point where I can't remember something. Was only one thing, then the next time out it was a few more. I've never been unable to remember how I got home, but my memory of being in the taxi is very vague, I may not remember the ride but I'll remember the conversation. And like I said before, this has only happened over the past 4 months, and so far each time I've been out has been the most drunk I have ever been before. Not great, but that's another thing.
Anyways, during the course of the night A took Tom to one side and asked him if I always got that drunk on a night out. Simple answer = no. But because he's only known me for 2 months, and has only been out drinking with me 3 times he's only ever seen me shitfaced. So he has a valid point but I still can't believe he would have to ask. He knows what I'm like during the week, and only that and the 3 times we've been out because we don't really socialise much in the house otherwise. He goes to the pub two or three times with 2 other housemates, and I don't see much of him. He's probably done more drinking while in Reading than I have, but I still get hit with the shit stick.
So yeah, wasn't too impressed. And because I obsessed over it because I was still drunk and Tom said this at 4am (and also said that he didn't think it was a big deal), it led to a whole load of crap and neither of us fell asleep very quickly after that.
My point? I don't really know. But last night I mentioned it in passing to another hosuemate who was asking why I wasn't going to participate in attempting 1/4 of a Centurion like him and his 3 friends were. That particular housemate knows me better than most of others with the exception of one or two, we've spent more times getting drunk together and talked a lot more. He reckons it's the kind of thing A would say and do, but I don't see why, or even if that's true because neither of us know him very well. And more importantly I'm not sure how to deal with it and the shit it's brought up.
I don't see why I should have to make a concious effort to not do something in case that person judges me, and frankly I don't want to. But I do worry about what other people say and think of me, I always have, probably to a slightly unhealthy or unhelpful degree but it's a difficult thing to change, and little things like that bring it all back. But for a while now until I know how to act around him I'm going to be wondering if he's going to be watching me or something wierd, making mental notes as to how much I'm drinking. Silly I know, but once I'm aware of something that's it, I've had it as far as that's concerned.
It's been a horrific week not only because I have that floating around in my head, but also because it's brought up other questions with myself and Tom, and once I get something stuck in my head it won't turn off. Needless to say it's the weekend, I got a little but not much drunk last night with the other housemate, and had a good night :) Until the drunken friend invited over hit the fire alarm instead of the light switch and set off the fire alarm which we have been unable to reset....
;) xx
I've come to the end of 4 weeks of 9-5 and now start 2 weeks of 2-10 where my back aches, the skin on my hands cracks and bleeds, my arm cramps and I collapse into bed at the end of it. Still, it's only for 2 weeks.
Had one of the worst weeks in my life emotion wise this week, and I'm so glad to get rid of it. All started with a group of us (myself, Tom and 3 housemates) heading out for a night out. As it was Tom's first night out in Reading with me it was gonna be a big night out, it was a chance to have a night out with my best mate who I haven't seen in 7 months because she's been abroad, and it was A's (housemate) birthday the next day. So we started drinking and headed out.
It was a good night, I was very drunk but still in control, I've never had to have anyone help me walk, help me chuck up, put me in a taxi, take me home, anything like that. I always take care of myself, if I need to throw I'll quite happily disappear for 10 minutes and then come back and carry on with the night, I don't cause a fuss. All that said, it was the most drunk I have ever been, and here's the pattern. Since september I've broken my barrier, since september I've no longer had to throw up once I reach a certain point, as a result I've started getting to the point where I can't remember something. Was only one thing, then the next time out it was a few more. I've never been unable to remember how I got home, but my memory of being in the taxi is very vague, I may not remember the ride but I'll remember the conversation. And like I said before, this has only happened over the past 4 months, and so far each time I've been out has been the most drunk I have ever been before. Not great, but that's another thing.
Anyways, during the course of the night A took Tom to one side and asked him if I always got that drunk on a night out. Simple answer = no. But because he's only known me for 2 months, and has only been out drinking with me 3 times he's only ever seen me shitfaced. So he has a valid point but I still can't believe he would have to ask. He knows what I'm like during the week, and only that and the 3 times we've been out because we don't really socialise much in the house otherwise. He goes to the pub two or three times with 2 other housemates, and I don't see much of him. He's probably done more drinking while in Reading than I have, but I still get hit with the shit stick.
So yeah, wasn't too impressed. And because I obsessed over it because I was still drunk and Tom said this at 4am (and also said that he didn't think it was a big deal), it led to a whole load of crap and neither of us fell asleep very quickly after that.
My point? I don't really know. But last night I mentioned it in passing to another hosuemate who was asking why I wasn't going to participate in attempting 1/4 of a Centurion like him and his 3 friends were. That particular housemate knows me better than most of others with the exception of one or two, we've spent more times getting drunk together and talked a lot more. He reckons it's the kind of thing A would say and do, but I don't see why, or even if that's true because neither of us know him very well. And more importantly I'm not sure how to deal with it and the shit it's brought up.
I don't see why I should have to make a concious effort to not do something in case that person judges me, and frankly I don't want to. But I do worry about what other people say and think of me, I always have, probably to a slightly unhealthy or unhelpful degree but it's a difficult thing to change, and little things like that bring it all back. But for a while now until I know how to act around him I'm going to be wondering if he's going to be watching me or something wierd, making mental notes as to how much I'm drinking. Silly I know, but once I'm aware of something that's it, I've had it as far as that's concerned.
It's been a horrific week not only because I have that floating around in my head, but also because it's brought up other questions with myself and Tom, and once I get something stuck in my head it won't turn off. Needless to say it's the weekend, I got a little but not much drunk last night with the other housemate, and had a good night :) Until the drunken friend invited over hit the fire alarm instead of the light switch and set off the fire alarm which we have been unable to reset....
;) xx
Friday, 2 January 2009
Did you have a good start to the year?
Well, did you?
Mine was nice and quiet, apart from when I realised I'd hit the wine a little too hard and needed to throw, but after and before it was nice ;)
I'm currently in bed watching saddo celebrity big brother for the first time ever. Verne is very cute, but probably doesn't need telling that! Not entirely fussed on the rest of them so far, Verne was the only one who didnt get booed (at time of posting with 5 housemates in there).
Aside from that, things are going well in the new job, settling in and getting stuck in (to the best of my abilities!!)
Hope you all have a fantastic new year
xx
Mine was nice and quiet, apart from when I realised I'd hit the wine a little too hard and needed to throw, but after and before it was nice ;)
I'm currently in bed watching saddo celebrity big brother for the first time ever. Verne is very cute, but probably doesn't need telling that! Not entirely fussed on the rest of them so far, Verne was the only one who didnt get booed (at time of posting with 5 housemates in there).
Aside from that, things are going well in the new job, settling in and getting stuck in (to the best of my abilities!!)
Hope you all have a fantastic new year
xx
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